a portfolio of

Words that sit with
the uncomfortable feelings.

I'm Annie Otedoh — a creative writer working mostly in poetry and short fiction. My writing tends to start where most people stop talking: loneliness, guilt, faith, the quiet years nobody asks about.

Lagos, Nigeria anneefron115@gmail.com @anwrite.r

Poetry

Five short pieces, written across different seasons — some about being overlooked, some about faith, one about finally being enough.

Imagine.

Imagine crying in the morning Without a single soul to hold me Eyes red Recalling every single detail Bad things happen when I'm in the sequence Imagine romanticizing writing Going back to the place I healed my scars in Pen up Crying heavy on the parchment Lovely poems but my soul is black and violet
the poem that started the habit of writing through it, not around it.

The sad reality of work.

Entered several competitions and lost Worked hard but even that didn't work Gave my new and improved version, she was not enough Loved, but was never loved in return Accepted by absolutely no one Rejected, mourned and scorned Lost all that glitter and shine Even that couldn't secure me a nine to five I was supposed to be a tech boss But for dear life I know not how machines work Gossiped about, spoke no ill, for that would be wrong Poured cups of life for people who liked to drink rum Watched their spawns rule, in no bitterness I cheered and wooed Writing dark words, but I never say about who In short I gave up works, is there anything anyone can do?
a list poem about trying every version of yourself and still coming up short.

Eternal Life

I have something that extends beyond the fleeting grasps of human touch, It cannot be bought with gold or silver, it's value supersedes all When I am old and grey, I will be restored I have hope, at night the stars whisper something more Away in a manger, a babe saved the world 2000 years later HIS relevance is still the talk of all Transcending black or white, short or tall There is love, we are brothers, HIS nation is one Streets paved with gold, I used to walk on empty thorns A love feast, with our fathers who fought this war The things of this life do not affect me at all In Christ, I have new life, I have won the war.
faith as a permanence, set against everything else in the collection that fades.

I am not...

I have a secret I used to brave my face to hide my lonely I used to cry myself for lack of love I hid my secrets, they were safe and well tucked But now I have the inclination to share one I AM NOT... Everything that I thought I am not my weak moments, I am not my faults For the life of me, I am not strong I am the city set on a hill lit by love I am human, an emblem of God I am my broken heart, but I am more I am still searching but this time, I carry my love.
the turn — from hiding to naming, mid-poem.

That eleven year old

When you get all the things you ever wanted Car, the house, the friends, the money It won't fill you They said that things don't make a difference, don't fill a void But it will make her smile The girl who was out cast cause she never had enough The one who looked down on herself because she was never enough It will bring a tear to my eye Cause I remember how I let others treat me cause I never valued myself It will bring that sweet click And with that will come peace It will remedy the hours of stalking So I could see what I could never get It will ease the intense hatred that swells up in my heart It will help me forget my past If I can win just one time If any moment will ever be allowed to be just mine That eleven year old will smile She will drop her pen and go to sleep at night.
winning, finally, not for the prize but for the kid who never got to.

Short Fiction

Character-driven scenes and one unfinished letter — proof I can build a voice fast and get out of a scene before it overstays.

Flash fiction

The Wrath of the President

I watched in disbelief as Darla, tears enough to flood nations, laid down her presidency for the fourth time this month. She swore she was never coming back — we didn't deserve her, and she was better off without the burden.

A week later, the fiasco still echoed. Our beloved debate society was in shambles.

"Should we beg her?" I asked at the lunch table.

"My dear goodness, no. That's what she wants," Dami said, annoyance sharp on his tongue.

Orla, fresh from holiday, walked in.

"What's going on?"

With a tired sigh, I said, "Nothing — just the wrath of the president."

Flash fiction

Sweet Nothings

"Anyone caught as an offender will be…" oh brother, I think to myself as I lean further into my chair. This school only has two ways of communicating: threats and punishments. This is going to be a long assembly.

I'm about to turn back to our principal when I feel a pair of eyes boring into my soul. I dart my eyes across the room slowly, moving from my friend's frizzy hair to the LED screen, till I finally land on Reuben, flipping pancakes — my crush is staring at me.

I snap my head back to the speaker, and after about four minutes, I start the procession of head movements again. And this time, our eyes lock.

Excerpt — work in progress

The Letter That Should Never Exist

Dear Itohan,

If you are reading this letter then I failed. A few days ago I gave birth to the most beautiful baby girl — she is perfect in every way. In the days after, she changed the way I love. If this letter is somehow in your hands right now, then I have failed.

Every day I wake up in Notterdam, the guilt of what I had to do yesterday for survival eats me alive. It nibs at my flesh bit by bit, until I am wholly overrun by regret. It has been four years since I came to this blasted town, and all peace has forsaken me ever since. I came here hopeful, happy to escape my modern-day reality of abuse by my parents. I came with nothing but love and joy in my heart. Four years later, I see what a fool I was to think that — because running from your current problems only leads you into bigger ones.

I remember my second year in Kemish Hall. I had no money for anywhere nicer — in fact, no money for food. I was squatting with a friend; the deal was simple: she gave me a place to stay, I cooked and cleaned in her house. I left the house that particular day feeling very sorry for myself. It marked my two-year anniversary in that place, and I had achieved nothing. So I set out with one goal in mind — get a job, so I would no longer—

— manuscript continues. Full chapter available on request.

About

I write to make sense of what's hard to say out loud — grief, faith, self-worth, the version of yourself you outgrew. My poetry leans confessional; my fiction leans toward small, specific moments that say more than they explain. I'm looking for creative writing, editorial, or storytelling work where voice is the whole point.